karen isabelle christianti tandoyo

i have always liked the name "isabelle" and i didn't really know the meaning at first, and it's been quite a while since i've been considering to take it as my baptist name, and yea, i just told my parents that and they've agreed to make it my baptist name.

it means "God's promise", it comes from a hebrew name, and i really believe that it's not a coincidence that i have always loved the name.

it's supposed to be isebel (you could look it up in wikipedia) but it's been adapted in french, and "belle" means beautiful.

they say a name affects the person's life, and i really believe it does. lol.

so yeah, my long full name is now karen isabelle christianti tandoyo :)

the pine forest

today my teacher told me something interesting.

we were talking about crocodiles and all the tourist attractions we have here in australia. and then he told me how there's this pine forest in new zealand where he comes from that once you drive in and see all the same trees everywhere would confuse and make you feel lost (cos there's no signs or drive way or anything) . however if you keep on driving the forest comes to an opening, the destination - the end of the forest.

that's what i felt about my life journey too. yep, i just went into a pine forest, and i picture it that i just walked like 5 minutes away from the start. all of this is just the beginning, i keep telling myself, but it's got me confused and feel lost already.

at times it seems hard for me to believe that there's a good end there somewhere someday in the future, but everytime i close my eyes and pray i could feel that my Daddy is here with me, and He listens to me. i just have to keep the faith.

grace by grace, wonders by wonders

lo gak bakal tau seberapa terharunya gue waktu nyokap gue bilang di bbm "papa mama udah siapin uang ke uni 14000 per tahun"

okeh, mungkin gue gk tau harga pastinya masuk uni, tapi gue tau itu pasti banyak banget yang di butuhin, mana uni yang mau gue masukkin itu top 30 in the world, university of sydney.

gue masih gak yakin sih kalo dari college bisa masuk sana, tapi kata guardian gue yang anaknya temen bonyok bilang sih bisa, dan okay, gue percaya aja deh. rencana sih gue pengen ngambil psychology. toh dari dulu juga emang gue pengen dan tertarik banget soal yang namanya belajar kepribadian orang dan lain-lain. even though, yea, that interest seems to be deteriorating everyday, i guess it's kinda because i got too busy with all of my stuff.

gue seneng banget waktu su lyn bilang dia juga mau ambil psychology, dan kita rencana gitu mau masuk bareng, dan kalo bisa juga share flat bareng.

gila ya, kalo di pikir-pikir sih Tuhan bisa banget sampe bawa gue ke point ini.

oh iya, kayak dua hari kemaren, waktu gue lagi kerja, tiba-tiba ada orang nawarin kerja di cafe.

jadi gini, jangan lo pikir kerja di mcdonald's tuh kerja gampangan yang tinggal berdiri belakang kasir terus ambil order. hell no man, kalo lo di suruh kerjain "dining" itu tuh berat banget, mesti ngangkat sampah, ganti tong sampah, terus nyapu ngepel, bersihin sampah. men, gue kira kerja di mcdonalds gk bakal kerja sekasar itu, tapi yea, i did that.

terus hari itu stephanie, my manager lagi ngasi tugas, dan mungkin that random guy pikir gue dimarahin ato gimana, dia bilang dia ada kerjaan dan kasi gue nomer, gaji gue di mcdonalds cuma 11 dollar sejam, dan katanya sih kalo kerja di dia gajinya 16 dollar sejam. bedanya banyak banget kan?!

tapi gue belom sempet ke cafenya karena kerjaan sama emang gk ada waktu :S rencananya sih besok, tapi kata dia sih gue udah dapet kerjaannya :P amin lah, gila Tuhan tuh baik banget emang.

siapapun lo yang ada disana dan care enough to pray for me, please do, i need strength to go through all of this, karena gk gampang men yang namanya hidup sendiri dan berjuang sendiri, andddd if anyone of you who's reading this post and have any prayer request, please do comment down here, i would like to pray for you as well :)

remember that Daddy loves you, and Daddy's plan is to prosper you and not to harm you :) He simply love you.