hineni

Father, i know i couldn't ask for a life that's without problems, burdens and pain. cos i know that if i'm living such bliss i am not living, for the only place that is without suffering is only in Your place, the beautiful heaven.

but Dad, i do have this only one request for you to give me my portion. to give me patience, strength and courage, for You to always take my hand and guide me, to strict me to walk in the right path and to always look forward in the future, to consider every consequence of my actions.

for i know i'm not perfect, i am not flawless, instead i'm the filthiest soul that is lucky enough to have been taken and chosen by You. i could never be perfect Dad, but please guide me in my every actions, correct me if i'm wrong and let every scene in my life be according to Your will.

give me Your heart, Father. that's full of mercy, that's pure and loving. let me see things through your eyes and feel the way you feel. give me that sensitivity to do things precisely.

and so i bring this life, my life, as an offering, to please You, and You only.

here i am, Dad, hineni.

amen.

while you do the possible, i'm doing the impossible for you

"while you do the possible, i'm doing the impossible for you"

this is what i've learnt from these past few days.

i'm not perfect and i'm totally aware of it, but my God is an awesome God, He strengthens me, enable me to do things beyond my potential.

and i believe that His loving hands is involved in every page of my story.

and so, while i'm here working on my stuff, He's there with His plans, and i grow to believe Him even more day by day.

indonesian culture

let me take you back to those days where the land of indonesia is planted with big, strong trees, and where birds are found chirping, singing along with the wind that is kindly blowing, giving a pleasant cool breeze which comforts the people who are busy, trying to make a living in the market, by selling and buying food that they've grown, trading, and entertaining.

life was simple back then, and with indonesian, who are always as innocent and as friendly, they are open to the world, open to learn something new, open to be better.

unfortunately globalization has taken advantage of their innocence. indonesia is gradually leaving its beautiful culture behind.

such a loss i would say, such a loss.

indonesia has this one of a very beautiful culture, in which in its complication we could find more than just a culture, but a life of art, and beauty which covers almost a lot of things.

a lot of indonesian culture such as wayang, traditional dances and games are started to be left behind, and i would say that this is such a loss, remembering that these things are the things that defines Indonesia. this things are that -- which makes Indonesia different than any other country in this world, these things describes Indonesia.

i just got back from a wayang orang show that is held in senen, jakarta pusat, in gedung kesenian jakarta. wayang orang bharata, and well if you're interested, i would highly recommend it.

i have never thought that such show could be held nicely, in the place where everything is so neat and clean, and beautiful, full of wayangs, of which they really proudly present to the world as they are.

although i could barely understand a word they're saying, but i enjoy myself admiring its beauty through their dances and costumes.

oh, the costumes especially, they're really beautiful. complex and wonderful, i really love it, although then i left early because it was too late, but it was a beautiful show. it'd be better if i speak javanese though :P

this is the kind of show that indonesian people should be proud of, not something that they should despise, saying it's old fashioned and stuff.

i don't think it is.

in fact, it's something worth preserving, something that we could always be proud of.

anyways, if you're interested to go and see this show, go click wobharata.multiply.com :))

be proud of your country, Indonesians !