who am i?

i found myself to have a very low self-esteem today. when i was in th mall with my sister.
it was bothering me for a while, and i was actually asking myself a lot of questions.

i have an identity crisis a few weeks ago. more like a month maybe.
it was a time when i really don't know who i really am, and i was having doubts.
seriously, it was horrible. but every teenager would go past through this sequel, as one of my friends who takes psychologic as a major once said.

i don't think i have to go on the details on what actually made me feel this way. but i was feeling like i can't trust anyone. not even those whom i thought was really close to me, and understand me. the whole world seems to just go against me, and it was confusing. because i know, right when i make my choice of path, things would be different.

different in what way was the question.

thank God, i've got past through that safely. i'm really grateful i didn't make the wrong choice, and though i'm still struggling to pull myself together, so that i won't lose myself again, i,.. don't think i want to be someone i'm not.

who am i?

i don't think i know that yet.
i mean, i'm still young. i still have many choices to make. and yet, i could change my mind every second and go through different paths of life.

i remember in the "eclipse" movie, there was this one speech that got me. it was on the graduation, when this girl said "this is the time to make mistakes." and i somehow agree with her. maybe life shouldn't be perfect. maybe these mistakes are what's gonna take me right on top. maybe these mistakes could be the ones i'd be grateful of.

but of course i wouldn't do serious mistakes. i mean, i still have my mind, and i would keep myself as much as i could, right on track.