a little of heart talk

there's always this little insecure part of me that's always covered.

just somehow covered.

i know it's never left.

no matter how much joy i feel, or how i have grown, always, even it's only so little, but there it is, it's stuck inside, refusing to leave.

moving here to australia has changed me quite a bit.

you know how some people look at me and think how mature and independent i am.

but here, although yeah, i could still quite be considered independent, but inside i'm scared.

australia has a lot of difference with indonesia, and unlike singapore which i think you could still tolerate if i, as an indonesian, am not a fluent english speaker, australia sometimes has this white racist people and they've got me intimidated.

don't get me wrong, i love australia as much as i love indonesia.

it's just that it's all so different here,

well, maybe i just need some time to adapt i guess.

sometimes i feel so alone you know.

i know this is so lame talking my heart out to some strangers on my blog (or maybe you're not a stranger after all?)

and i do need some comfort, and with these new people who barely knows my past, i guess..

i guess i just miss the presence of those who knows my past :(

i have only one request.

if you are reading this blog and you know me, do you mind if you put me somewhere in the middle of your prayers sometime? :)

pray that i could be strong enough to go through these things, so that i could finish strong, finish well, and in return, if you have any prayer requests maybe you could post a comment down here, and i'll say one or two prayers for you :)

all in all,

stay strong !